She grew up insecure but is finding her path to happiness
Jenelle Evans has been living a far more peaceful, mature, and loving life than she was in previous years, and we’re so happy for her. Her happiness is only set to grow as she plans her wedding to David Eason and her home becomes complete. Plus, she’s also got an entire summer to spend with her boy Jace.
We’re just on the eve of the release of Jenelle’s new book, and the passages that she’s released ahead of time explain so much about her.
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Maladjusted
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Jenelle turned to her childhood diaries to explain how she was raised and how that affected her life (which was quite turbulent at times) in the future. She wrote, “This diary entry written at thirteen says so much about me and my life then and now. It is lonely. It is sad. It is rejected. I did cry myself to sleep some nights of out fear and negativity. I would like to say I will never cry myself to sleep again, but I know this isn’t true. No matter how much I accomplish, a secret part of me will always be this scared thirteen-year-old girl. I will always feel awkward and maladjusted.”
Getting Better
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As sad as that passage is, Jenelle is getting better now that she has all that love from her three kids and her soon-to-be husband David. She explained, “I may smile at the camera, but sometimes I am dying on the inside. Not always, and not nearly as often as years ago, but the doubt and insecurities are still there. It’s there, somewhere, hidden under years of smiles, the assurance that everything is okay.”
Meet William
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Of all of the men that have been in Jenelle’s life, there’s one that really stands out. He was the love of her life for a long time, but he was also the guy who introduced her to things that would end up harming her down the road.
Jenelle said about William, “That’s also the night I met William for the first time. This was the boy who would change my life forever. All of the other guys before him were just puppy love infatuations compared to William. He was my first, true love. I know, I know! I wrote that a half million times in my diaries and I am sure I thought as much about each and every boy before William, but he really was different.”