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The Fight
Source: MTV
Any fan of the show knows that one of the biggest moments of season one was when their fights turned physical, and Amber actually hit Gary. In the book, she explains how things got so bad and reveals that the girl Gary had cheated on her with actually appeared on the show. “The whole thing was kept under wraps. He actually filmed with this girl one time, and people who were watching didn’t realize he’d cheated on me with her. It was kept covered up for a long time.”
Working it Out
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Despite this, Amber wanted things to work out with Gary, and she described the fateful night. “I got up and sort of quietly went down the hallway to listen. And there he was, on the phone, talking to this girl. In my freaking house, he was sitting there talking to the girl he cheated with.” She added, “I know people might think they know how bad it was from that they saw, but what was inside our world, what we did keep from showing other people, was even worse. There were times we’d physically fight, both of us. He’d spit on my face and I’d spit back in his face.”
Going Insane
Source: Twitter @AmberLPortwood
Unfortunately, that wasn’t the worst of it. She had to sign over custody of Leah which made her depression and anxiety worse which led to more self-medicating with pills. “I can tell you that the day I signed over custody rights to Leah’s father was the day I completely broke […] Everything that happened around that time is a complete jumble, because after I lost Leah I literally went insane.”