Unfortunately, Leah didn’t feel like she could share her trauma with her family. She explains that she “felt ashamed” and like she had “done something wrong.”
“I stuffed the memory down so deep it was almost as if it never happened. Except that it did, and it became another loose stone in the foundation of my self-worth,” Leah shared. “It took a long time for me to find my voice because I didn’t know how to love myself enough to say no.”
Click next to read Leah recounting her suicide attempt.
Leah Messer Reveals She Was “Blacked Out” On Pills After Suicide Attempt
For years, the fans of Teen Mom had a longstanding theory about Leah Messer: many believed that she had struggled through and overcome a serious addiction to prescription painkillers.
Now, after years, Leah is confirming these theories.
Although she denied it for some time, Leah is peeling back the curtain about what really happened during those years, and how much of it she spent entirely blacked out.
During the 2014-2015 season of Teen Mom 2, rumors ran rampant that Leah Messer was hooked on prescription painkillers. In fact, even those in Leah’s life were concerned about her alleged use of pills. Her ex-husband Corey Simms and other members of her family were concerned about some of Leah’s actions that were caught on film. One time, Leah held the recently born Addie while almost falling asleep in the middle of a sentence! Leah also often had such a hard time getting out of bed that she sent the girls to school late, or without lunch.
Drug use and addiction are not something that MTV has historically shied away from. Jenelle has discussed her heroin and weed addictions on camera, and production for Teen Mom OG filming was even shut down when Amber Portwood was put in prison for drug and domestic violence charges. Leah, on the other hand, has never talked about drug use on the show, except to insist that she has never been addicted.